From:  shan lung <shanlung9@y...>
Date:  Thu Oct 14, 2004  2:18 am
Subject:  Tinkerbell - The last day of this chapter

Hi folks,

Today,
13th Oct 2004 after a golden afternoon with us,
at 545pm, Tinkerbell stood on my shoulder for the last
time before I leave
Taiwan tomorrow. She then stepped
up on my hand, touched her beak gently to my lips, and
went onto Yu's shoulder outside his temple. I then
turned my bike around and rode away. Later on in the
evening, that bike was given to Yu so Tinkerbell can
continue to ride on her Tink's
Mobile.

On returning to the hotel that we stayed in, a
weariness
swept over me. My mind frozed and I had to
lay down on the bed. My body, joints and muscles ached
as if I had the flu. For a long while, I closed my
eyes while waves of conflicting emotions washed over
me. Then a welcome comforting inner calm came and
emotional acceptance gave me peace. It may have been
from chemicals produced in my over stressed brain
cells. I rather like to think the prayers and
thoughts that you send my way gave me the strength
despite the pain I may have caused you from my last
couple of emails from an emotionally troubled mind

 and I thank you all.

With that drawdown of the pain, I appreciated better
the gift of having Tinkerbell in my life. She and I
would have existed, whether or not we met. Except
that if we had not met, she would likely to have been
kept 24 hours in a cage and be fed on sunflower seeds
and I would not have seen
Taiwan in such delightful
manner and my life be so much less. I take back those
words I had said in an earlier letter. Given the
chance to go through life again and knowing the pain
that will come, I gladly have Tinkerbell even for
part of my life.

I have done as much as I can for her. With hindsight,
I know I could have done more but that is academic at
this point now. If and when Tinkerbell is reunited
again with us again in whatever country, there will be
firm contigency plans in place to ensure any
separation will be temporary.

My hopes and prayers will be for us to be together
again and I have been working tgowards that. How that
will develop, no one, especially me, will know now. I
accept that what we get may not be what we want be it
for reasons from high or more mundane.

The hour is late now for me here in
Taiwan and I do
need to end soon to complete my packing. But a few
things are very clear to me now and I touch on them
briefly. The times I had with 3 totally different
creatures and their interactions with each other and
us impressed on me as to their innate intelligence.
While I do not wish to look for others to 'replace'
them, I do not think I am capable of stepping aside,
or wish to step aside, and ignore any that needs help
that I can provide.

Along that line, if I can help or better the life any
fid and their parront with what I have learned from
having my path merged with that of Tinkerbell, I will
do so if that is welcomed. Tinkerbell's webpage will
be continued to be maintained by me. Eventually, I
will get to updating it to this letter.

But first, I will be absent for some time from all the
lists. I do need a period of rest and time with Joy.
If I hear of any important news with regards to
Tinkerbell, I will let you all know.

So folks, goodbye for now until we meet again and all
happiness to you and your fids wherever you may be.

Do think kind thoughts for Tinkerbell and her
happiness whoever she may be with.


=====
With warmest regards

Shanlung - lackey to all below
Joy - wife, Tinkerbell - CAG, daughter and love of my heart
Halftail the Bimbo - beautiful sweet silly cat
Zorro - ferret which loves parrot pellets
Bim and Zor are with other loving families now
I will remember them for the happy times they gave me

earlier emails and photo links on Tink -
http://www.geocities.com/shanlung9
(erratically and sporadically updated)